Who knew it was possible to be loved in all the right ways and for all the right reasons? Being loved by someone for just being yourself has to be one of the most indescribable, blissful feelings this universe has to offer. It makes me feel blessed to be myself. Sometimes you forget you are lovable, but it’s a wonderful feeling to know there are people out there who will remind you that you are and who will love you for everything you are and everything you’ve been. They will accept and love all of you while also accepting your shortcomings and insecurities. After all the trauma I’ve had to endure in my lifetime, it’s one of the most healing and rewarding feelings to find someone I can share these hardships with, and who loves me and praises me for surviving all of it. This is a gift and I feel blessed today. I want nothing more than to love him just as purely and wholeheartedly as he does with me. I want to motivate him just as much as he motivates me to keep fighting and continue to better myself while still going through some of the leftover trauma I experience to this day. It’s scary sometimes being this close to someone, it’s a vulnerable feeling but something tells me that allowing myself to be this happy while also being this vulnerable is one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. It also tells me that if you’re scared of losing something so much, it’s something very dear to you and it’s something very much worth keeping close to your heart. I don’t know if I’ve ever truly loved anyone I’ve spoken those words to. Every day I want to work on being a better lover and a better person for him and myself, he inspires me and makes me want to grow with him - and that’s how I discovered that I’ve never truly experienced genuine, authentic, mature love until this time in my life. I don’t know how to express how grateful I am for him, but I know I’ll show him every day my reciprocated love in the best ways I know how to. Love like this is truly a blessing that I know doesn’t happen often, and I don’t plan to take even a second of it for granted. Thank you for loving me in the best way I’ve ever experienced. Thank you for being my best friend and my lover all at the same time. Thank you for choosing me to share your life with on a daily basis, it’s truly an honor. Even when we are doing and saying the silliest and simplest of things. Most of all, thank you for just simply being you, including how you carry yourself on a day to day basis, your sense of humor, your big heart, and all of your passions, goals, ambitions, and dreams. Even if I wasn’t your lover it would still be just as much of a blessing just to know you the way that I do. You’re so easy to love, it’s effortless. I wouldn’t change a thing about how we got to where we are now. I had my doubts in the beginning about how or if we would end up here, but now there is not a single doubt left. I have faith in you and us. I can’t wait to continue this journey and to continue to see a love between us grow that exceeds all my hopes and expectations.
